The results of mine when I took Elsie's Quiz which is for everyone to see:
Taking for Singles(Love language)
Your Scores
7 Words of Affirmation
10 Quality Time
6 Receiving Gifts
6 Acts of Service
1 Physical Touch
The higher the number, the better it is, LOL. I laughed damn hard when I saw that Physical Touch only had 1 point. I really don't like getting touched huh? :)
Languages for Apology
Your Scores
1 Expressing Regret
8 Accepting Responsibility
2 Making Restitution
4 Genuinely Repenting
5 Requesting Forgiveness
From the quiz I think you can already tell my personality, haha. I don't see any point in the person expressing regret if he or she made a mistake cause it already happened, no point harping on things. If you accept the responsibility and consequences of your mistakes and is genuinely repenting and asking for forgiveness, I will surely forgive you without a thought. So people, if you offend me in the future, you know what to do. :)
Tada~ :)
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Saturday, October 27, 2012
birthday post 1
Yo peeps. I'm updating HAHAHA. Was chatting with Sien on the phone a few hours ago and was reading out my past blog entries when I realised something: My past blog entries were always about band, DBSK or my crush.
I can't believe it. Why was my life so lame? LOL. My life back then was real pathetic, I feel. HAHA. Sure, I had something that I was passionate for, but to the contrary, I was led around blindly by this stupid obsession so much so that I even forgot to experience life. I was living for band and nothing else, somehow, that disgusts me.
Am I saying that I hate band? No. Absolutely not! I still love it. I absolutely do. I just don't get why my blog entries are ALL about band. I mean it's no wonder why no one wants to read it right? HAHA. Now I don't blame Sien for rejecting my blog. Heehee. :)
So yes, a lot of events have happened these past few days and I'm sure you all are curious what happened on my birthday right? And as for the post before, Vernise was my classmate but she was involved in a car accident and therefore passed away recently from her injuries. I'm sad but I think what Mr Tan said is right.
"Life goes on."
No matter what happens, life still goes on. It doesn't matter if you wanna be trapped in the past or look forward to the future, time still passes, life still moves forward, you have NO choice. In a way, Vernise's death was an eye opener for me. It taught me that just learning to treasure your friends and telling them you love them is not enough, we need to EXPERIENCE life. If we do not experience life, how can we say that we're living when we're merely existing?
I think I'm starting to catch a glimpse of the importance of life and the fragility of it. Sure, I am studying to be a veterinary nurse now, but do I even know the implications of it? What if I do not study well and during an operation my insufficient knowledge led to the death of an animal? How am I going to account to the owner and her/his family? How can I even account to myself?
It was then that I knew that this path that I am taking now isn't going to be easy. Sure, I've always known it was difficult. I just thought I could handle it. Chances are, I most likely am not able to. I'm a careless person, and I do not wish that because of that a fatal mistake occurs and takes another life away. Life is that fragile after all.
Still, there are many joys to life aren't there? Elsie said she couldn't comprehend my love language. She could not understand if I was spending time with her cause I was bored or cause I really wanted to spend time with her. She could not guess my intentions when I let her read my diary. I guess she's a real foolish girl after all. Why are the majority of friends around me all having problems with expressing their emotions anyway? Come to think of it, it's always the ones with trust issues that I end up friends with. Haha. Maybe birds of the same feather truly flock together? :) I do not know for sure but it sure seems like the case doesn't it?
I don't even know what point I'm trying to make now. -.- My thought processes aren't very organised either, haha. That's why I'm married to Sien. We are very similar in that aspect. :) Alright, now moving on. I promised to post about my birthday to Yilian so yes, here goes nothing. I'm going to post this from a first person's point of view so it's going to be like a composition of some sorts okay? :) Here goes.
12 midnight. 12.00am.
It was the day of my birthday yet it felt like any other ordinary day to me. I glanced at my phone and despite my nonchalant attitude, I could feel the excitement slowly creeping into me. It was finally my birthday! Surely I could do everything I want for my birthday? If that was the case, does not studying for the entire day count?
Nodding firmly in consent and praising myself for my sound sense of logic, I closed the book in front of me which had remained empty for the past few hours and resigned myself to the fate of procrastination. My lips curved at the thought of the time that was now freed out since studying was cancelled.
"DBSK HERE I COME."
I exclaimed to myself as I enthusiastically jammed on the keyboard in front of me. Screw my exams! Screw my studies! DBSK was my world now and I could care less about anything else. My phone was cast aside and abandoned. I should not expect my friends to message me anyway. It was just midnight on the dot. Who would message at the exact time?
Humming to myself, I was happily browsing through my Facebook page when I heard the sound of a notification and a chat window popped out of the screen.
"Lim Suu Swen, it says? That's so weird. Why will she even talk to me suddenly?"
I mumbled to myself as I clicked on the chat window. Immediately, birthday wishes flooded the conversation and enthusiastic greetings were made. My mouth gaped open and I was shell-shocked. How did she know my birthday? I only told her once the day we first met online. Why would she even bother remembering it anyway? I thought she wouldn't even care. We just knew each other for a few days after all and yet not only did she remember, she even wished me a happy birthday!
Surprised. Shocked. Amazed. Those three words were a slight inclination to what I was feeling at that point of time. Bells were ringing in my head and it was as though I could feel angels swarming all over me and my ears ringing with their melodious singing. This was surely all a dream?
Still unable to believe that she would actually take the time to remember my birthday, I plucked up my courage and questioned her with trepidation, fully expecting a negative answer in return. Her answer presented a second shock to me.
"You are my dongsaeng ma, why will I not remember?"
Words that I thought were just for fun, feelings that I did not take into consideration were actually something meaningful and significant to her. Instantly, I was overwhelmed with a feeling of disgust. She genuinely love me for a friend and what did I do? I treated her feelings like dirt and took no notice of them. How could I even do that to her?
"Thank you."
I replied her, a sense of gratitude filling me to the core. Among all my friends, I seem to be the real lucky one as I always made true friends. I know for sure that my friends would never betray me nor break my trust ever. That is a comfort that is certainly difficult to find in modern society and to think that I almost lost it.
"Well, maybe you're really losing it." I grumbled to myself, a wave of annoyance washing over me as I refreshed the browser for the third time, my stubborn laptop refusing to cooperate with me. Everything was taking ages to load and the song that I was blissfully listening to got cut off midway because of that. Fuming, I was just ready to lash out at the prime target in making my laptop lag when I realised that the very culprit was my new made friend, Suu Swen.
Apparently, she had posted up on our World Bigeast Cassiopeia (WBC) group for everybody to wish me a happy birthday and so when the many heartfelt wishes came flooding in, my laptop was unable to cope with the strain and hanged there.
Seriously?
I thought to myself when I saw the notifications on my Facebook homepage rising acutely. What is the world coming into? Why would anybody wish a stranger, someone whom they have never met, a happy birthday? It was then that the same realisation struck me again. It's because to them, Cassiopeia is really a family, and families wish their family members happy birthday all the time.
Ashamed once more, I thanked all the Cassies who wished me, smiling to myself as I felt a fuzzing sense of warmth growing in me. I was loved by so many and to actually feel that, well, that is really a wonderful feeling. Because of that one post that she did on my wall and on WBC, people noticed my birthday and people started wishing me. If not for her, my birthday would have been spent quietly and I would have not known how much love the world was able to spare me. For that, Suu Swen, thank you. ^^
This picture was posted on my wall after Suu Swen triggered the bomb. I was so shocked when I saw that picture as it was my favourite Yunjae picture with 'Happy Birthday Amelia Choo' written on it and for someone to actually bother to do it for me at all made me feel all the more blessed. To that Cassie, thank you. :) Thank you so much. You have the ability to make people smile with the simplest of actions and I hope that it will continue on and on.
It made my birthday one of the most memorable ones anyway.
Alright. It's 5.42am and I've gotta sleep if not I'll be late tomorrow and slaughtered by Sien. :( Watch out for part 2 tomorrow though! :)
I can't believe it. Why was my life so lame? LOL. My life back then was real pathetic, I feel. HAHA. Sure, I had something that I was passionate for, but to the contrary, I was led around blindly by this stupid obsession so much so that I even forgot to experience life. I was living for band and nothing else, somehow, that disgusts me.
Am I saying that I hate band? No. Absolutely not! I still love it. I absolutely do. I just don't get why my blog entries are ALL about band. I mean it's no wonder why no one wants to read it right? HAHA. Now I don't blame Sien for rejecting my blog. Heehee. :)
So yes, a lot of events have happened these past few days and I'm sure you all are curious what happened on my birthday right? And as for the post before, Vernise was my classmate but she was involved in a car accident and therefore passed away recently from her injuries. I'm sad but I think what Mr Tan said is right.
"Life goes on."
No matter what happens, life still goes on. It doesn't matter if you wanna be trapped in the past or look forward to the future, time still passes, life still moves forward, you have NO choice. In a way, Vernise's death was an eye opener for me. It taught me that just learning to treasure your friends and telling them you love them is not enough, we need to EXPERIENCE life. If we do not experience life, how can we say that we're living when we're merely existing?
I think I'm starting to catch a glimpse of the importance of life and the fragility of it. Sure, I am studying to be a veterinary nurse now, but do I even know the implications of it? What if I do not study well and during an operation my insufficient knowledge led to the death of an animal? How am I going to account to the owner and her/his family? How can I even account to myself?
It was then that I knew that this path that I am taking now isn't going to be easy. Sure, I've always known it was difficult. I just thought I could handle it. Chances are, I most likely am not able to. I'm a careless person, and I do not wish that because of that a fatal mistake occurs and takes another life away. Life is that fragile after all.
Still, there are many joys to life aren't there? Elsie said she couldn't comprehend my love language. She could not understand if I was spending time with her cause I was bored or cause I really wanted to spend time with her. She could not guess my intentions when I let her read my diary. I guess she's a real foolish girl after all. Why are the majority of friends around me all having problems with expressing their emotions anyway? Come to think of it, it's always the ones with trust issues that I end up friends with. Haha. Maybe birds of the same feather truly flock together? :) I do not know for sure but it sure seems like the case doesn't it?
I don't even know what point I'm trying to make now. -.- My thought processes aren't very organised either, haha. That's why I'm married to Sien. We are very similar in that aspect. :) Alright, now moving on. I promised to post about my birthday to Yilian so yes, here goes nothing. I'm going to post this from a first person's point of view so it's going to be like a composition of some sorts okay? :) Here goes.
12 midnight. 12.00am.
It was the day of my birthday yet it felt like any other ordinary day to me. I glanced at my phone and despite my nonchalant attitude, I could feel the excitement slowly creeping into me. It was finally my birthday! Surely I could do everything I want for my birthday? If that was the case, does not studying for the entire day count?
Nodding firmly in consent and praising myself for my sound sense of logic, I closed the book in front of me which had remained empty for the past few hours and resigned myself to the fate of procrastination. My lips curved at the thought of the time that was now freed out since studying was cancelled.
"DBSK HERE I COME."
I exclaimed to myself as I enthusiastically jammed on the keyboard in front of me. Screw my exams! Screw my studies! DBSK was my world now and I could care less about anything else. My phone was cast aside and abandoned. I should not expect my friends to message me anyway. It was just midnight on the dot. Who would message at the exact time?
Humming to myself, I was happily browsing through my Facebook page when I heard the sound of a notification and a chat window popped out of the screen.
"Lim Suu Swen, it says? That's so weird. Why will she even talk to me suddenly?"
I mumbled to myself as I clicked on the chat window. Immediately, birthday wishes flooded the conversation and enthusiastic greetings were made. My mouth gaped open and I was shell-shocked. How did she know my birthday? I only told her once the day we first met online. Why would she even bother remembering it anyway? I thought she wouldn't even care. We just knew each other for a few days after all and yet not only did she remember, she even wished me a happy birthday!
Surprised. Shocked. Amazed. Those three words were a slight inclination to what I was feeling at that point of time. Bells were ringing in my head and it was as though I could feel angels swarming all over me and my ears ringing with their melodious singing. This was surely all a dream?
Still unable to believe that she would actually take the time to remember my birthday, I plucked up my courage and questioned her with trepidation, fully expecting a negative answer in return. Her answer presented a second shock to me.
"You are my dongsaeng ma, why will I not remember?"
Words that I thought were just for fun, feelings that I did not take into consideration were actually something meaningful and significant to her. Instantly, I was overwhelmed with a feeling of disgust. She genuinely love me for a friend and what did I do? I treated her feelings like dirt and took no notice of them. How could I even do that to her?
"Thank you."
I replied her, a sense of gratitude filling me to the core. Among all my friends, I seem to be the real lucky one as I always made true friends. I know for sure that my friends would never betray me nor break my trust ever. That is a comfort that is certainly difficult to find in modern society and to think that I almost lost it.
"Well, maybe you're really losing it." I grumbled to myself, a wave of annoyance washing over me as I refreshed the browser for the third time, my stubborn laptop refusing to cooperate with me. Everything was taking ages to load and the song that I was blissfully listening to got cut off midway because of that. Fuming, I was just ready to lash out at the prime target in making my laptop lag when I realised that the very culprit was my new made friend, Suu Swen.
Apparently, she had posted up on our World Bigeast Cassiopeia (WBC) group for everybody to wish me a happy birthday and so when the many heartfelt wishes came flooding in, my laptop was unable to cope with the strain and hanged there.
Seriously?
I thought to myself when I saw the notifications on my Facebook homepage rising acutely. What is the world coming into? Why would anybody wish a stranger, someone whom they have never met, a happy birthday? It was then that the same realisation struck me again. It's because to them, Cassiopeia is really a family, and families wish their family members happy birthday all the time.
Ashamed once more, I thanked all the Cassies who wished me, smiling to myself as I felt a fuzzing sense of warmth growing in me. I was loved by so many and to actually feel that, well, that is really a wonderful feeling. Because of that one post that she did on my wall and on WBC, people noticed my birthday and people started wishing me. If not for her, my birthday would have been spent quietly and I would have not known how much love the world was able to spare me. For that, Suu Swen, thank you. ^^
This picture was posted on my wall after Suu Swen triggered the bomb. I was so shocked when I saw that picture as it was my favourite Yunjae picture with 'Happy Birthday Amelia Choo' written on it and for someone to actually bother to do it for me at all made me feel all the more blessed. To that Cassie, thank you. :) Thank you so much. You have the ability to make people smile with the simplest of actions and I hope that it will continue on and on.
It made my birthday one of the most memorable ones anyway.
Alright. It's 5.42am and I've gotta sleep if not I'll be late tomorrow and slaughtered by Sien. :( Watch out for part 2 tomorrow though! :)
Friday, October 26, 2012
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Monday, October 22, 2012
RIP Vernise :((( :((( :(((( :((((
I'm here to blog cause I still can't believe it. I'm here to blog cause I still can't accept it. The truth is clearly written on that tablet, and your death is already confirmed on the paper but I still can't accept it.
You were not close to me, but you were sitting next to me for the rest of my Secondary 4 Year and I still remember us bitching about everyday events. I can't believe this. How can you be gone so fast? How can you even be gone?
This is so unfair. Life is so fucking unfair. You were such a bubbly, such a cheerful girl, how could this happened? HOW COULD IT FREAKING HAPPENED? WHY IS LIFE SO UNFAIR?? I don't get it. I am not close to you but even right now, I'm struggling to control my tears. I'm actually tearing. I still can't believe it. How can it be true?
How can it be that one of the most cheerful girl I've ever known is dead? A traffic accident, you say? A FUCKING TRAFFIC ACCIDENT? I am crying now. Vernise Kwa, I am crying now. Didn't you always want to see me cry? Now you've got the chance but why aren't you seeing? WHY?
Why is it that we as humans won't ever appreciate what we have until we've lost them? Why is it so? I'm so freaking afraid now. I wanna grab all my friends and give them a HUGE hug cause I don't want them to ever leave thinking that I couldn't even spare them a hug. I wanna hug Nelli, Carity, Sien, Tingwei, Michelle, Shimin, Yilian and everybody whom I hold dear right next to my heart. Elsie, Winnie and Nena too. Life's so scary and for once, I'm really scared shitless. I'm not afraid of Death, I used to say it once right? But now seeing the impact Vernise's death has on other people, for once, I really am scared of dying.
And now I'm crying. Life's too short for regrets. Life's really too short for regrets. Too short. Way too short.
Vernise, saranghaeyo~
Sorry for arguing that DBSK was the best. I'll even agree with you now that Shinee is better so can't you come back?
I sorta miss you.
Why didn't I contact you?
I miss you.
Why was I so foolish?
I miss you.
Please come back.
Please.
I miss you.
:(
You were not close to me, but you were sitting next to me for the rest of my Secondary 4 Year and I still remember us bitching about everyday events. I can't believe this. How can you be gone so fast? How can you even be gone?
This is so unfair. Life is so fucking unfair. You were such a bubbly, such a cheerful girl, how could this happened? HOW COULD IT FREAKING HAPPENED? WHY IS LIFE SO UNFAIR?? I don't get it. I am not close to you but even right now, I'm struggling to control my tears. I'm actually tearing. I still can't believe it. How can it be true?
How can it be that one of the most cheerful girl I've ever known is dead? A traffic accident, you say? A FUCKING TRAFFIC ACCIDENT? I am crying now. Vernise Kwa, I am crying now. Didn't you always want to see me cry? Now you've got the chance but why aren't you seeing? WHY?
Why is it that we as humans won't ever appreciate what we have until we've lost them? Why is it so? I'm so freaking afraid now. I wanna grab all my friends and give them a HUGE hug cause I don't want them to ever leave thinking that I couldn't even spare them a hug. I wanna hug Nelli, Carity, Sien, Tingwei, Michelle, Shimin, Yilian and everybody whom I hold dear right next to my heart. Elsie, Winnie and Nena too. Life's so scary and for once, I'm really scared shitless. I'm not afraid of Death, I used to say it once right? But now seeing the impact Vernise's death has on other people, for once, I really am scared of dying.
And now I'm crying. Life's too short for regrets. Life's really too short for regrets. Too short. Way too short.
Vernise, saranghaeyo~
Sorry for arguing that DBSK was the best. I'll even agree with you now that Shinee is better so can't you come back?
I sorta miss you.
Why didn't I contact you?
I miss you.
Why was I so foolish?
I miss you.
Please come back.
Please.
I miss you.
:(
Sunday, October 21, 2012
F.R.I.E.N.D.S.
Yo peeps. It's been a while since I've last updated huh? Like really a while. :X I don't know why too. Every time I open blogger up, I meant to type an entry out but every single time, I falter, and my fingers leave the keyboard.
I really don't wanna blog haha. There are too many conflicting emotions within me that are trashing out at one another now and I really don't know what to do with them. HEH. :P Still, this blogpost is meant to be a happy entry so it will remain as one, even though I am not really feeling happy at the moment.
*sighs*
School's starting on Monday and my time table is really SUCKY. I hate it to the core man. URGH. Stupid time table taking up so much of my time. :( It shortens my time for DBSK. IT SHORTENS MY TIME TO MAKE VISITS TO NYP WHICH IS WHAT I AM INTENDING TO DO! :(
I am going to be there for Sien every single step of the journey. That is a promise I swore to myself when I heard the news. I have been a terrible friend to her all these years and it is time I suck it up and deal with it. I AM going to be a good friend to her this time round. I can only pray that she'll enjoy my company in sooner days to come.
No more negative emotions anymore. No. SHOO! I am going to erase every single one of you away from my brain. My friends need me. My hamsters need me. I need me. It's time to dispel all the unwanted thoughts and lock them all up in a box far far away in my mind. Oh. If only Harry Potter existed and I'm a witch, I need not do all these then. A simple 'Oblivate' will do the job! :(
Now, since I'm terribly bored, I'm gonna dedicate a song to each and every single one of my friends that is really what I feel towards you. The songs are chosen carefully okay so WATCH OUT FOR THE LYRICS DUDES! :)
1. SIEN
Song: Wish by DBSK ft. Cho Kyuhyun & Kim Ryeowook
When I first heard this song, I already felt that it was singing my feelings for you. :') I.. I don't know what to say without this being terribly awkward but with what you told me, well, I still think you are a strong girl.
"The pain you experienced and the times you cried, put them in your heart, just hold them in, and you'll be able to smile someday. I believe that you can do it. It's a wish that I can't erase. I'll hold your hand so you can shine brightly. The dark path you've been closed in, if you find your way through it, little by little, your life will become different. Even if you fall due to exhaustion, you can always stay. Do you see me standing beside you?"
I'm always here girl, but you're always awkward with expressing your emotions and relying on me. Still, I want you to always know this: I am just right beside you. ^^
2. ELSIE
Song: Love In The Ice by DBSK
After I contacted you and you started telling me about your life woes, this song popped up in my head. At first, I wanted to choose this song for Sien, but somehow, the feel was not right. As I continued listening onto the song, I finally realised that the song was for YOU. I was mistaken. It is my feelings for you. Go on, hear it~ ^^
"For anyone to be loved by someone makes life in this world shine. If it was me, I’d make your heart warm once more with eternal tenderness. Even if fate’s games hurt the heart, on the other side of the tears, a single ray of light will swoop down into the darkness. We know that this is so. As strong as the feeling of suffering, we can feel people's warmth."
"Everyone is searching for a place that can heal their sadness and loneliness. So.. for you, that place is here. Don't be afraid. Don't hesitate anymore because I'll protect you. My heart is pained because this love is so beautiful so don't be afraid. Even if it's just momentarily, I'll let you know my love. This time is beautiful, you know? It is to let you know my love."
3. TINGWEI
Song: いつだって君に by JYJ
Cause I always want to see you when I'm not with you. I miss you always. :') Here's to a brighter future in polytechnic! ^^
"I wanted to see you only. I've always wanted to see you. I'm still embracing your everything. Allow yourself to smile just for us. Certainly, light will shine ahead of us. Because I didn't know what to say about this pain, I felt like throwing out the true words. However, our love never changed. It is surely connected by an invisible bond."
"If it was the path chosen by our hearts, we can walk any distance now. Better make it through the loneliness. Now, from our memories to our continuation of dreams, why don't we start searching for them together? I wanted to see you only. I've always wanted to see you. I came here to convey my feelings to you. I also endured the loneliness by just believing in you. I am forever grateful because we have the feelings for each other."
4. YILIAN
Song: 忘れないで by 東方神起
I'm always afraid you'll forget me, hence this song. As life goes on, there are times we'll lose contact with each other and it might be as severe as not talking for days or months. I can envision it happening in the future! Still, I want you to always know that the memories of us are never forgotten. You are always missed by me and I can't wait for your A levels to be over so that we can hang out more often together.
It doesn't matter that life takes us on two different paths. As long as this love between us last, this friendship will transcend time and breakthrough every single obstacle that lays before it. This is the power of love. ^^ But before that... don't forget me okay? :)
"I sit on my bed and think of you. It's alright even if I can't see you. I miss you, but just this feeling is enough. The memories of you remain; they are so strong. I read a short message from you and it makes my chest tighten painfully. Still, I'm determined to keep protecting your happiness eternally."
"On the path we'd always walk, I felt your presence. Silently, I closed my eyes and prayed that it'll never disappear. Without acknowledging the things that hurt you deeply, you just kept on laughing and smiling. I'll always remember and cherish that. I'll keep yelling out to the world even if the words I use are none but ordinary."
"I'll become the wind and wrap gently around you. Right now, I just want to fly into a world with you in it. However, even though I want to see you so much and I miss you so much, I'll wait for you, so don't forget me."
5. NELLI
Song: What Makes You Beautiful by One Direction
No, I'm not giving you a One Direction song just because you are a Directioner. I'm giving you this song cause this whole song seriously describe my feelings towards you. I know you think your Sisterhood is really pretty but you wanna know my honest opinion? I think you are the most beautiful out of all of them. Pity you don't know it. Well, now hear this song and KNOW it. ^^
"You're insecure, don't know what for. You're turning heads when you walk through the door, Don't need make-up to cover up, being the way that you are is enough. Everyone else in the room can see it, everyone else but you."
"Baby you light up my world like nobody else. The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed, But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell, you don't know. Oh oh, You don't know you're beautiful, If only you saw what I can see, you'll understand why I want you so desperately. Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe. You don't know. Oh oh. You don't know you're beautiful. Oh oh. That's what makes you beautiful."
6. SHIMIN
Song: I'll Be There For You by The Rembrandts
HAHA. Another song that is not DBSK. Surprised? :) Well, don't. Haha. DBSK song lyrics are way too mushy for both of us. I think I'm accurate in saying that choosing this song will literally save our lives. HAHA. This song made me think of you though, the first time I heard it so yes, here it goes. ^^
I really don't wanna blog haha. There are too many conflicting emotions within me that are trashing out at one another now and I really don't know what to do with them. HEH. :P Still, this blogpost is meant to be a happy entry so it will remain as one, even though I am not really feeling happy at the moment.
*sighs*
School's starting on Monday and my time table is really SUCKY. I hate it to the core man. URGH. Stupid time table taking up so much of my time. :( It shortens my time for DBSK. IT SHORTENS MY TIME TO MAKE VISITS TO NYP WHICH IS WHAT I AM INTENDING TO DO! :(
I am going to be there for Sien every single step of the journey. That is a promise I swore to myself when I heard the news. I have been a terrible friend to her all these years and it is time I suck it up and deal with it. I AM going to be a good friend to her this time round. I can only pray that she'll enjoy my company in sooner days to come.
No more negative emotions anymore. No. SHOO! I am going to erase every single one of you away from my brain. My friends need me. My hamsters need me. I need me. It's time to dispel all the unwanted thoughts and lock them all up in a box far far away in my mind. Oh. If only Harry Potter existed and I'm a witch, I need not do all these then. A simple 'Oblivate' will do the job! :(
Now, since I'm terribly bored, I'm gonna dedicate a song to each and every single one of my friends that is really what I feel towards you. The songs are chosen carefully okay so WATCH OUT FOR THE LYRICS DUDES! :)
1. SIEN
Song: Wish by DBSK ft. Cho Kyuhyun & Kim Ryeowook
When I first heard this song, I already felt that it was singing my feelings for you. :') I.. I don't know what to say without this being terribly awkward but with what you told me, well, I still think you are a strong girl.
"The pain you experienced and the times you cried, put them in your heart, just hold them in, and you'll be able to smile someday. I believe that you can do it. It's a wish that I can't erase. I'll hold your hand so you can shine brightly. The dark path you've been closed in, if you find your way through it, little by little, your life will become different. Even if you fall due to exhaustion, you can always stay. Do you see me standing beside you?"
I'm always here girl, but you're always awkward with expressing your emotions and relying on me. Still, I want you to always know this: I am just right beside you. ^^
2. ELSIE
Song: Love In The Ice by DBSK
After I contacted you and you started telling me about your life woes, this song popped up in my head. At first, I wanted to choose this song for Sien, but somehow, the feel was not right. As I continued listening onto the song, I finally realised that the song was for YOU. I was mistaken. It is my feelings for you. Go on, hear it~ ^^
"For anyone to be loved by someone makes life in this world shine. If it was me, I’d make your heart warm once more with eternal tenderness. Even if fate’s games hurt the heart, on the other side of the tears, a single ray of light will swoop down into the darkness. We know that this is so. As strong as the feeling of suffering, we can feel people's warmth."
"Everyone is searching for a place that can heal their sadness and loneliness. So.. for you, that place is here. Don't be afraid. Don't hesitate anymore because I'll protect you. My heart is pained because this love is so beautiful so don't be afraid. Even if it's just momentarily, I'll let you know my love. This time is beautiful, you know? It is to let you know my love."
3. TINGWEI
Song: いつだって君に by JYJ
Cause I always want to see you when I'm not with you. I miss you always. :') Here's to a brighter future in polytechnic! ^^
"I wanted to see you only. I've always wanted to see you. I'm still embracing your everything. Allow yourself to smile just for us. Certainly, light will shine ahead of us. Because I didn't know what to say about this pain, I felt like throwing out the true words. However, our love never changed. It is surely connected by an invisible bond."
"If it was the path chosen by our hearts, we can walk any distance now. Better make it through the loneliness. Now, from our memories to our continuation of dreams, why don't we start searching for them together? I wanted to see you only. I've always wanted to see you. I came here to convey my feelings to you. I also endured the loneliness by just believing in you. I am forever grateful because we have the feelings for each other."
4. YILIAN
Song: 忘れないで by 東方神起
I'm always afraid you'll forget me, hence this song. As life goes on, there are times we'll lose contact with each other and it might be as severe as not talking for days or months. I can envision it happening in the future! Still, I want you to always know that the memories of us are never forgotten. You are always missed by me and I can't wait for your A levels to be over so that we can hang out more often together.
It doesn't matter that life takes us on two different paths. As long as this love between us last, this friendship will transcend time and breakthrough every single obstacle that lays before it. This is the power of love. ^^ But before that... don't forget me okay? :)
"I sit on my bed and think of you. It's alright even if I can't see you. I miss you, but just this feeling is enough. The memories of you remain; they are so strong. I read a short message from you and it makes my chest tighten painfully. Still, I'm determined to keep protecting your happiness eternally."
"On the path we'd always walk, I felt your presence. Silently, I closed my eyes and prayed that it'll never disappear. Without acknowledging the things that hurt you deeply, you just kept on laughing and smiling. I'll always remember and cherish that. I'll keep yelling out to the world even if the words I use are none but ordinary."
"I'll become the wind and wrap gently around you. Right now, I just want to fly into a world with you in it. However, even though I want to see you so much and I miss you so much, I'll wait for you, so don't forget me."
5. NELLI
Song: What Makes You Beautiful by One Direction
No, I'm not giving you a One Direction song just because you are a Directioner. I'm giving you this song cause this whole song seriously describe my feelings towards you. I know you think your Sisterhood is really pretty but you wanna know my honest opinion? I think you are the most beautiful out of all of them. Pity you don't know it. Well, now hear this song and KNOW it. ^^
"You're insecure, don't know what for. You're turning heads when you walk through the door, Don't need make-up to cover up, being the way that you are is enough. Everyone else in the room can see it, everyone else but you."
"Baby you light up my world like nobody else. The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed, But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell, you don't know. Oh oh, You don't know you're beautiful, If only you saw what I can see, you'll understand why I want you so desperately. Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe. You don't know. Oh oh. You don't know you're beautiful. Oh oh. That's what makes you beautiful."
6. SHIMIN
Song: I'll Be There For You by The Rembrandts
HAHA. Another song that is not DBSK. Surprised? :) Well, don't. Haha. DBSK song lyrics are way too mushy for both of us. I think I'm accurate in saying that choosing this song will literally save our lives. HAHA. This song made me think of you though, the first time I heard it so yes, here it goes. ^^
"So no one told you life was going to be this way.
Your job's a joke, you're broke, you're love life's DOA. It's like you're always stuck in second gear.
Well, it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year but I'll be there for you. When the rain starts to pour,
I'll be there for you like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too."
"You're still in bed at ten, the work began at eight. You've burned your breakfast, so far, things are going great. Your mother warned you there'd be days like these but she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees that I'll be there for you. When the rain starts to pour, I'll be there for you like I've been there before. I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too."
"No one could ever know me, no one could ever see me. Seems like you're the only one who knows what it's like to be me. Someone to face the day with, make it through all the rest with. Someone I'll always laugh with, even at my worst, I'm best with you."
7. MICHELLE
"Make my wish come true. Let darkness slip aside. Hiding all the hope. Mocking what we treasure. Battles we can win if we believe our souls. Hang in for the light 'till dawn. Fate will not leave you. Hate will not heal you. Pray, and one day peace shall flow everywhere."
This song lyrics is very short, but it is special because of that. The whole song is heart wrenching yet beautiful. Emotions are expressed in such a few words. I'm just so touched by this song. Of course, this song reminds me of you. :) In a lot of ways. Let me post another one though, since this one is so short.
Song: 君がいるから by Sayuri Sugawara
And this marks the end of my blogpost. FINALLY, LOL. :) Carity, since you don't read this blog I didn't dedicate any song to you, hope you don't mind. :P Alright, entry ended. :) MUSHINESS IS OVER. YAHOOOO. Till next we meet! ^^
"You're still in bed at ten, the work began at eight. You've burned your breakfast, so far, things are going great. Your mother warned you there'd be days like these but she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees that I'll be there for you. When the rain starts to pour, I'll be there for you like I've been there before. I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too."
"No one could ever know me, no one could ever see me. Seems like you're the only one who knows what it's like to be me. Someone to face the day with, make it through all the rest with. Someone I'll always laugh with, even at my worst, I'm best with you."
7. MICHELLE
Song: Serah's Theme from Final Fantasy
"Make my wish come true. Let darkness slip aside. Hiding all the hope. Mocking what we treasure. Battles we can win if we believe our souls. Hang in for the light 'till dawn. Fate will not leave you. Hate will not heal you. Pray, and one day peace shall flow everywhere."
This song lyrics is very short, but it is special because of that. The whole song is heart wrenching yet beautiful. Emotions are expressed in such a few words. I'm just so touched by this song. Of course, this song reminds me of you. :) In a lot of ways. Let me post another one though, since this one is so short.
Song: 君がいるから by Sayuri Sugawara
"You suddenly said, "You can cry if you want.". Somehow it made me happy and instead of tears, I smiled. My words were so clumsy and they hurt you but I don't want you to leave me. I want you to stay beside me always."
"Wishes and dreams I want to come true. The feelings I wish I could tell you. A miracle created from the things I've always believed is connected to the future. Always, always I want you to watch over me. Dear my friend."
:)
And this marks the end of my blogpost. FINALLY, LOL. :) Carity, since you don't read this blog I didn't dedicate any song to you, hope you don't mind. :P Alright, entry ended. :) MUSHINESS IS OVER. YAHOOOO. Till next we meet! ^^
P.S. Actually this was just an opportunity for me to promote DBSK's music.
P.P.S. The above was a joke.
P.P.P.S. This whole post is a joke.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
月光
重看了天外飞仙，感触良多。起初看这部戏时，我还小，还很单纯，爱的定义还不是很熟悉。离开的时候，我落了泪。落泪不是因为我理解落泪的理由，而仅仅是因为周围的气氛影响到我而已。如今长大了，女主角离开男主角时为何落泪的理由我终于明白了。
男主角在女主角离开时只说了一句话： 我不爱你。
为何说出如此狠话？当时的我不明白。是因为太过痛才这么说的吗？还是要对方遗忘对对方的爱所以才说出这违背良心的话？还是因为实在不知道如何承受疼痛所以在绝望之下说出了“我不爱你”这句话？
现在的我还是不明白。或许我得要经过爱情的种种苦难才能明白它之中的甘吧。 自己还是那么的幼小。。那么的天真。。好像赶快成熟噢。唉。。 突然感觉自己好老噢，嘿嘿。
最近一直用华语写博客，大家请别见怪。我只是觉得世上没有语言能比华语更能形容人的感情罢了！华语可是我的骄傲噢！哈。
比方说吧，天外飞仙有一首歌的歌词写得很贴近人心。
重复的听着这首歌
自己难过自己泪流 茉莉花随着风飘落
回家的路一个人走过
也许是哪里走错
路的尽头没有人等我 岁月总是擦肩而过
流星划过什么也不留
月光之下我们哭过笑过
月光之下你曾说你爱我
风雨再大我会一直握着你的手
呵护着你不让你走
我真的被这首歌的歌词给迷到了，哈哈。
好了，就在这此停笔吧，拜拜！
Monday, October 15, 2012
爱
闭起双眼
那年的风景出现在眼前
泪从眼眶落了下来
回忆仍然待在从前
笑得像阳光般灿烂
你的眼神对我的留恋
那一秒那一瞬间
世界似乎变得更明亮
睁开了双眼
那年的风景消失在眼前
颤抖的双手与沉重的心
你我的画面已成了从前
哭得像暴雨般凄惨
离开的道别还挂在嘴边
就在那一天的那一瞬间
我的世界失去了边缘
顺着时间的转变假装不屑
陌生的演技也变得熟练
陌生的演技也变得熟练
笑容也随着渐渐凋谢
原来你就是我唯一的生命线
对你的思念却绵绵不断
努力追逐着曾有的过去
默默守护着对你的爱恋
眼前的路坎坷不平
我却已经安心定志
你的爱已成了我的指引方向
陪着我踏上人生路上
Thursday, October 11, 2012
JELLI~ ^^
奶力跟Joel终于走在一起了！^^
I'm so happy for them, hahahaha. It was always a matter of time with them anyway and now that they are FINALLY together, well, that means I get to tease them. :) :)
Alright alright, maybe I'll tone down the teasing a little, but still...
THEY ARE FINALLY TOGETHER! :)
^^ And let it be known that the first person to ship them in the first place is me, AMELIA CHOO SHU XIAN, WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I swear I'm a freaking fortune teller, haha. Whatever I ship comes true. :) YAY! I shipped both XX and Nelli and Joel and Nelli and look! They came true! :) :) Now all I have to do is to ship myself and DBSK, HAHA.
Speaking of this, I'm gonna be the only one SINGLE among my polytechnic friends.. :( :( This sounds so sad does it? :( Oh well. If I ever feel lonely I'll always have DBSK do I? :) At least I can always count on DBSK to keep me entertained. ^^ Besides, I'll always have my secondary school friends to fall back on. WEEE~
So yes, the main point of this entry is really to announce that Joel and Nelli now are finally official, LOL. NOW NELLI, ANTICIPATE THIS FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY!
......
Forget it. LOL. I wanted to draw but I realised that my drawing on computer totally sucks so I'm just gonna post this:
FINALLY YOU BOTH ARE OFFICIAL! ^^ ^^ ^^
WEEE. And to my unni Lim Suu Swen!
FINALLY YOU ARE 17!! ^^ HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! :) :) :)
Alright ending entry here cause I'm lazy to type. :) BYE!
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
A.N.G.E.R.
THIS IS YOUR FUCKING LAST CHANCE!
And if you screw it up..
You'll know what will happen to you.
Sunday, October 7, 2012
“如果我说我后悔了当初的决定，我还能倒转时间回到当初犯错的那一刻从新来过吗?"
爱。。究竟是最伟大的情绪还是最肤浅的甜言蜜语？
因为如果爱真如话中那么的伟大，那么的坚强，那它为什么这么容易被淹没了呢?
被恐惧淹没。。被自卑蒙住，真相又在何处？
如果爱真的那么伟大的话，为什么人还这么弱呢？
究竟爱是福还是祸？
爱的定义又是什么？
“我爱你。”
但我却在你后面耍花样，当个花心公子，同时玩弄两个女人。
这还算爱吗？
“我爱你。”
所以你对我的不忠心我不理。
是这样的意思吗？
我不明白。
你怎么可以就这样就原谅他？
他又怎敢在你面前乞求你的原谅？
这对你们来说是爱吗？
那对我这个还死死喜欢着“他”三年的人岂不是顿时成了个大傻瓜？
我不知道。
我不想知道。
爱。。原来是这么肤浅的情绪。我终于懂了。
Saturday, October 6, 2012
RANT
Blogging today. YAY! Haha. Today I went out with Sien. It was... different. Sien and I talked about things we usually don't talk about. We talked about the misunderstandings between us, all those grudges, hurt, and emotions we all felt.
I'm not going to lie. Secondary 4 year did hurt me. It was probably the weakest year in my life cause for the first time in my life, I felt isolated. I felt like no one could understand me. Sien and Nena always have this misconception that I don't care about them. They think that they don't matter in my life. I can't imagine why they would even think this way. I can't even tell what gave them that notion.
Had my actions been unacceptable? Was I perhaps fawning over Shimin and the others with love and ignoring Sien and Nena? If not for those words uttered, perhaps I would never know. For that, I thank God for today. Today is a day of healing. It is a day of clearing misunderstandings and speaking about our feelings. Sincerely, I think today did Sien and I's friendship a lot of good. It repaired it, and though it will never be the same as it was before those cracks, it had strengthened it by covering it with a stronger material. Those cracks still can be seen, but now they are just scars that prove of the strength of this marvelous friendship that withstood the torrents of time.
The friendship between Sien and I is different from the rest. Shimin knows it herself. HAHA. This jealous cycle going around just makes me wonder, humans really do get jealous easily huh? Shimin was jealous of Sien, Nena and I. I was jealous of Audrey and Nena. Sien was jealous over Shimin. Seriously, why are we trapped in this jealous circle? WE NEED TO GET OUT OF IT.
"Why you always laugh with Sien and Nena then when you go out with us you give that sian face?"
Just because I don't laugh as much doesn't mean I don't enjoy the time together with you guys.
"Look at her with Shimin, looks like she doesn't need us anymore."
Look at me without you then! I was a pathetic fool tearing at the slight mention of the distance between us.
"Have you and Sien and Nena quarreled? I rarely see you hanging out with them anymore."
I don't know.
"How is Sien and Nena? What course did they take?"
I don't know. I really don't.
"Are you still keeping in contact with Sien and Nena?"
I don't know. I really don't. We've distanced.
I hate those two words. We've distanced. I hate how I was forced to admit that fact at that point of time. I hate all those bad memories of Secondary Four. Am I saying that I am completely innocent in this whole huge ball of misunderstandings and hurt? NO. I am not. I am never innocent, just like Sien is not too.
We've made mistakes, our feelings were hurt and instead of talking them out, we kept them in. It scares me how similar Sien and I are sometimes. Yet, as Sien says, "We are the same, yet so different."
Indeed we are very different are we not? When we quarreled, the first person she thought to seek comfort from was her family. She didn't mind crying in front of her sister. She had courage that I will never have. I don't cry in front of my family.. If I ever did, it was always because I was mad and pissed. They never saw me cry when I was sad, not then, and certainly not now.
I love to cry in public places. It may seem weird but to me, it is the PERFECT place to be. I don't like people to see my tears. If you've seen my tears, that means that you're someone I really trust a lot to let my guard around you. The only people who have seen my tears are like:
1. Sien
2. Shimin
3. Tingwei
4. Michelle
5. Yilian
6. Sheryl
The last person is already striked off my list though. I no longer trust her. Sad, but true. Why bother hiding it? HAHA. Anyway like I was saying, I'm really happy for today because I finally understood her just that little bit. I finally caught a glimpse of Sien LOL.
I don't mind waiting. I am waiting for Sien just like how I am waiting for Yilian, Elsie and Winnie. I am waiting cause I know it's not easy to trust someone. Some have been hurt too much that they're afraid to trust. Some are scared. Some just don't know what to do. Whatever your reasons are, I'll keep waiting. Just like how I'll always wait for DB5K to come back. I'll keep the faith, cause I believe in our friendships, in their friendship, and cause really, it is freaking WORTH IT.
Oh, and the reason why Sien and I are married again is really cause of some stupid minute misunderstandings. Don't get surprised okay? It is settled now. We are happily married. LOL. NOW WE ARE OFF TO A HONEYMOON. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Yeah right. There is stupid school that is restarting soon and I think I will go bonkers just by thinking about it. Clearly, the only reason why I need education or why the whole damn Singapore needs education is to become more idiotic than what we already are. Yes, studying makes you stupid. Don't you know that? It is hundred percent proven by me, THE TEST SUBJECT IN QUESTION, WAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Now am I glad that I got that out of the way, haha. Seriously, it's people like Nelli and Carity that make my life in poly even bearable so for that, thank you okay? Love you sweeties. :)
Alright. Rant over. Lappie's lagging again so I can't be bothered to type anymore. This entry ends here. GOODBYE. ^^
I'm not going to lie. Secondary 4 year did hurt me. It was probably the weakest year in my life cause for the first time in my life, I felt isolated. I felt like no one could understand me. Sien and Nena always have this misconception that I don't care about them. They think that they don't matter in my life. I can't imagine why they would even think this way. I can't even tell what gave them that notion.
Had my actions been unacceptable? Was I perhaps fawning over Shimin and the others with love and ignoring Sien and Nena? If not for those words uttered, perhaps I would never know. For that, I thank God for today. Today is a day of healing. It is a day of clearing misunderstandings and speaking about our feelings. Sincerely, I think today did Sien and I's friendship a lot of good. It repaired it, and though it will never be the same as it was before those cracks, it had strengthened it by covering it with a stronger material. Those cracks still can be seen, but now they are just scars that prove of the strength of this marvelous friendship that withstood the torrents of time.
The friendship between Sien and I is different from the rest. Shimin knows it herself. HAHA. This jealous cycle going around just makes me wonder, humans really do get jealous easily huh? Shimin was jealous of Sien, Nena and I. I was jealous of Audrey and Nena. Sien was jealous over Shimin. Seriously, why are we trapped in this jealous circle? WE NEED TO GET OUT OF IT.
"Why you always laugh with Sien and Nena then when you go out with us you give that sian face?"
Just because I don't laugh as much doesn't mean I don't enjoy the time together with you guys.
"Look at her with Shimin, looks like she doesn't need us anymore."
Look at me without you then! I was a pathetic fool tearing at the slight mention of the distance between us.
"Have you and Sien and Nena quarreled? I rarely see you hanging out with them anymore."
I don't know.
"How is Sien and Nena? What course did they take?"
I don't know. I really don't.
"Are you still keeping in contact with Sien and Nena?"
I don't know. I really don't. We've distanced.
I hate those two words. We've distanced. I hate how I was forced to admit that fact at that point of time. I hate all those bad memories of Secondary Four. Am I saying that I am completely innocent in this whole huge ball of misunderstandings and hurt? NO. I am not. I am never innocent, just like Sien is not too.
We've made mistakes, our feelings were hurt and instead of talking them out, we kept them in. It scares me how similar Sien and I are sometimes. Yet, as Sien says, "We are the same, yet so different."
Indeed we are very different are we not? When we quarreled, the first person she thought to seek comfort from was her family. She didn't mind crying in front of her sister. She had courage that I will never have. I don't cry in front of my family.. If I ever did, it was always because I was mad and pissed. They never saw me cry when I was sad, not then, and certainly not now.
I love to cry in public places. It may seem weird but to me, it is the PERFECT place to be. I don't like people to see my tears. If you've seen my tears, that means that you're someone I really trust a lot to let my guard around you. The only people who have seen my tears are like:
1. Sien
2. Shimin
3. Tingwei
4. Michelle
5. Yilian
6. Sheryl
The last person is already striked off my list though. I no longer trust her. Sad, but true. Why bother hiding it? HAHA. Anyway like I was saying, I'm really happy for today because I finally understood her just that little bit. I finally caught a glimpse of Sien LOL.
I don't mind waiting. I am waiting for Sien just like how I am waiting for Yilian, Elsie and Winnie. I am waiting cause I know it's not easy to trust someone. Some have been hurt too much that they're afraid to trust. Some are scared. Some just don't know what to do. Whatever your reasons are, I'll keep waiting. Just like how I'll always wait for DB5K to come back. I'll keep the faith, cause I believe in our friendships, in their friendship, and cause really, it is freaking WORTH IT.
Oh, and the reason why Sien and I are married again is really cause of some stupid minute misunderstandings. Don't get surprised okay? It is settled now. We are happily married. LOL. NOW WE ARE OFF TO A HONEYMOON. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Yeah right. There is stupid school that is restarting soon and I think I will go bonkers just by thinking about it. Clearly, the only reason why I need education or why the whole damn Singapore needs education is to become more idiotic than what we already are. Yes, studying makes you stupid. Don't you know that? It is hundred percent proven by me, THE TEST SUBJECT IN QUESTION, WAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Now am I glad that I got that out of the way, haha. Seriously, it's people like Nelli and Carity that make my life in poly even bearable so for that, thank you okay? Love you sweeties. :)
Alright. Rant over. Lappie's lagging again so I can't be bothered to type anymore. This entry ends here. GOODBYE. ^^
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
UPDATE
Yo peeps. :) I'm finally blogging. WOOHOO~ Actually, it has been two days since I've last switched on my laptop. I was just too tired after work to even be bothered. Honestly. Unfortunately, I'm just going to be more and more tired out from now on cause soon one of my colleagues will be taking a few days leave as she is shifting house. Sighs. I would use the three words 'FUCK MY LIFE' but it isn't fair to those whom life really sucks so I shall refrain myself from using them. Barely.
God. My English now is really terrible, lol. I'm actually attempting to write this entry in proper English but I still can feel the itch to insert Singlish in here and there. Shit. I'm screwed. I can never speak nor write proper English from now on. *commits suicide and dies*
HAHA. I'm just kidding okay? I love entertaining myself in my blog and it is not my fault that you're reading my blog and feeling stupid cause this is just a bunch of bullshit. I am the definition of bullshit, YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN. :D
Anyway, speaking of this totally ridiculous and useless blog, I was thinking who on Earth would even read this gabble of words? I came to this conclusion that I am really lucky cause I have real friends who will stick with me no matter what, including wasting their life and reading bullshit. LOL. My readers are:
1. Shimin
2. Tingwei
3. Michelle
4. Yilian
5. Elsie
6. Nelli (?)
I put a question mark next to Nelli's name cause I'm not really sure if she reads it or not. I would think that she doesn't have the time and it's not like I update frequently so yeah, I don't really think she will read it. Still, she knows what I blog about sometimes so maybe she's an occasional reader? Well, let's leave it as that, shall we?
This blogging in proper English campaign is starting to piss me off, lol. I can't even put singlish words like 'leh', 'loh', and 'ma'. I should just stop trying haha. :) I need to blog Singlish! :( :* SINGLISH FOR THE WIN OH YEAH~ OH YEAH YEAH ~
Suddenly I'm thankful that Nelli didn't link me to her blog. I will positively die of embarrassment if Joel reads my blog and realises that I'm actually a crazy person with random changing thoughts every single second and oh my God, the entries that Nelli and I were blogging to each other... Let's just hope he does not check the archives. HE BETTER NOT. NELLI, I COMMAND YOU TO FORBID HIM. YOU CANNOT LET MIMI DIE OF EMBARRASSMENT LIKE THAT OKAY? (Heck, I'm even calling myself as Mimi, you've gotta help me now. T-T)
Okay, moving on now~ ...WAIT! I have no idea what I am on about now. DAMN! What was I saying again? Oh yeah! My loyal readers who have persisted in this arduous journey of trekking through pages and pages of garbage despite the idiocy, for that, I thank you my readers. You are the reason why I am even blogging in the first place.
It's been so long since I've started blogging and I just suddenly feel overwhelmed by it. HAHA. Lots of things have happened throughout my blogging years. Blogging had been used as weapon to defame others, a bridge to connect and mend friendships, a letter to make feelings known, a platform for mediation..
Blogging is really a part of my life that I cannot give up haha. Writing makes my world go sane. Animals make my world seem like a world worth living in and my family and friends make up my world. OMG. I can't believe I just uttered that. How unbelievably romantic and cheesy! *stabs myself with anapple OOPS. I meant knife. KNIFE.*
Urgh. Fatigue is catching up to me and now my words are starting to not make sense. Great Amelia, great. YOU ARE FREAKING GREAT! :( Shit. English, please come back to me. 回来吧~ 回来吧~ ^^
Now I'm really insane. OH have you just established that fact oh so smart Amelia? HAHA. I'm so snarky in my own head. NO WONDER CHANGMIN IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE IDOLS. ^^ I MEAN DUH? CHANGMEAN IS COOL!
Okay okay. This whole blogpost is meant to thank Michelle for that wonderful blogpost that she posted. I noticed that almost all of her blogposts has my name Ama choo in it. I feel so honoured. HAHA. So now, quoting from her blog, this is what she said that made me feel so ecstatic:
DUH? OF COURSE. I am a Cassiopeian and I am determined to convert all of my friends into Cassies. Of course, if you are like Nelli and already have a band that you love like her One Direction, I won't bother you. However, if you don't have one, well, let's just say that you're free game. HAHA. Beware peeps. I'm gonna convert all of you!! :D :D
FUCK. Now my laptop's lagging and I can't even see what I'm typing and it's loading so slowly and once again I am irritated. Urgh. Stupid laptop. Stupid lagness. STUPID INTERNET. LOVELY DBSK. Okay. Nice ending to a totally ridiculous rant. HAHA. x)
TADAH~ CARITY IS DAMN SWEET TODAY~ :) She and Nelli are one of my only friends who will say I miss you straight in the face, wahahaha.
Me: Aiyo. :( so sweet ah? :)
Carity: I always sweet de wat!!
Me: Thats why I'm sour. Sweet and sour go together ma. XD
Carity: kns!! lyk tt oso can!!
Carity: i miss u idiot!!
Me: WHY CANNOT?! :(( :(( I sour cannot ah? :( this fri you free? I off lol. You want we go out la. AIYO. MISS ME BEING AN IDIOT IS IT? :))
Carity: FREE!!go whr??miss ur everything la
AWWW~~ So sweet of her. :) *touched*
Oh. The reason she said I was an idiot was because I made her miss me. AWWWWW. MY LOVELY CARITY. NOBODY CAN REPLACE YOU OKAY? I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH ALSO!! :( :(
Now that I think of it, I kinda miss Michelle, Tingwei, Shimin, Yilian too. I think I'm crazy. I just met with Tingwei not too long ago. O_O Okay. I really am crazy. :) More importantly, I really miss hanging around Nelli and Carity together. No Joel and no Leon. Just the three of us, like it always was in school. :) I miss that. :')
I'm not going for class outing cause Laine's off on that day and I've gotta work. Honestly, I really didn't wanna go for class outing but now that I think of Carity there all alone... :( :( :( I NEED THAT OFF DAY MAN LAINE. I NEED IT!! *sobs and cries and turns into a puddle of goo*
G.
O.
O.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
^^
Okay, I really am going crazy. :) Oh, by the way, did I profess my undying love for TVXQ's Catch Me yet? I SERIOUSLY LOVE THAT SONG! :) :) OH OH AND JUNSU'S LOVE IS A SNOW. OMG. HIS VOCALS.... *mesmerised*
I'm dying a happy girl now. I seriously don't mind dying now. Right now, my life is complete. I have a wonderful family, wonderful friends, (shit. I forgot to say that I miss ELSIE SO MUCH TOO! T-T) and I'm a wonderful fan to a wonderful band. Shit. I'm really blessed aren't I? :)
I'm so so thankful man. Thank you God. THANKS! :) I will try to go to church more often from now on, lol. :) Keyword: T.R.Y. ^^
Alright. Ending this entry with an excellent fancam to an excellent event that happened on 29/9/12.
XIAH FREAKING JUNSU SANG A DB5K SONG AT HIS FANMEET IN JEJU ISLAND! ^^ NO STRIKE THAT, HE SANG TWO SONGS: Forever Love and Asu wa Kuru Kara. This is Asu wa Kuru Kara. :) I was so happy that I really wanted to kiss him as thanks lol. This proves that we ot5 fans are not stupid. That what we are believing in will come true one day.
Xiah Junsu
Micky Yoochun
Jung Yunho
Kim Jaejoong
Shim Changmin
ALL OF YOU MAKE UP DBSK. That is what Cassiopeia stands for. :) YEAH BABE~ ^^ ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH.
"When the rain falls, I will become your umbrella. When the wind blows, I will become your wall. Even though the darkness overtakes the night, tomorrow will come no matter what."
God. My English now is really terrible, lol. I'm actually attempting to write this entry in proper English but I still can feel the itch to insert Singlish in here and there. Shit. I'm screwed. I can never speak nor write proper English from now on. *commits suicide and dies*
HAHA. I'm just kidding okay? I love entertaining myself in my blog and it is not my fault that you're reading my blog and feeling stupid cause this is just a bunch of bullshit. I am the definition of bullshit, YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN. :D
Anyway, speaking of this totally ridiculous and useless blog, I was thinking who on Earth would even read this gabble of words? I came to this conclusion that I am really lucky cause I have real friends who will stick with me no matter what, including wasting their life and reading bullshit. LOL. My readers are:
1. Shimin
2. Tingwei
3. Michelle
4. Yilian
5. Elsie
6. Nelli (?)
I put a question mark next to Nelli's name cause I'm not really sure if she reads it or not. I would think that she doesn't have the time and it's not like I update frequently so yeah, I don't really think she will read it. Still, she knows what I blog about sometimes so maybe she's an occasional reader? Well, let's leave it as that, shall we?
This blogging in proper English campaign is starting to piss me off, lol. I can't even put singlish words like 'leh', 'loh', and 'ma'. I should just stop trying haha. :) I need to blog Singlish! :( :* SINGLISH FOR THE WIN OH YEAH~ OH YEAH YEAH ~
Suddenly I'm thankful that Nelli didn't link me to her blog. I will positively die of embarrassment if Joel reads my blog and realises that I'm actually a crazy person with random changing thoughts every single second and oh my God, the entries that Nelli and I were blogging to each other... Let's just hope he does not check the archives. HE BETTER NOT. NELLI, I COMMAND YOU TO FORBID HIM. YOU CANNOT LET MIMI DIE OF EMBARRASSMENT LIKE THAT OKAY? (Heck, I'm even calling myself as Mimi, you've gotta help me now. T-T)
Okay, moving on now~ ...WAIT! I have no idea what I am on about now. DAMN! What was I saying again? Oh yeah! My loyal readers who have persisted in this arduous journey of trekking through pages and pages of garbage despite the idiocy, for that, I thank you my readers. You are the reason why I am even blogging in the first place.
It's been so long since I've started blogging and I just suddenly feel overwhelmed by it. HAHA. Lots of things have happened throughout my blogging years. Blogging had been used as weapon to defame others, a bridge to connect and mend friendships, a letter to make feelings known, a platform for mediation..
Blogging is really a part of my life that I cannot give up haha. Writing makes my world go sane. Animals make my world seem like a world worth living in and my family and friends make up my world. OMG. I can't believe I just uttered that. How unbelievably romantic and cheesy! *stabs myself with an
Urgh. Fatigue is catching up to me and now my words are starting to not make sense. Great Amelia, great. YOU ARE FREAKING GREAT! :( Shit. English, please come back to me. 回来吧~ 回来吧~ ^^
Now I'm really insane. OH have you just established that fact oh so smart Amelia? HAHA. I'm so snarky in my own head. NO WONDER CHANGMIN IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE IDOLS. ^^ I MEAN DUH? CHANGMEAN IS COOL!
Okay okay. This whole blogpost is meant to thank Michelle for that wonderful blogpost that she posted. I noticed that almost all of her blogposts has my name Ama choo in it. I feel so honoured. HAHA. So now, quoting from her blog, this is what she said that made me feel so ecstatic:
Lunch
was fantastic. We ate at Seoul Garden hotpot, they offered student
meals :) hahas made me feel like a secondary school student again with
all those discounts.
The
diner kept playing k-pop songs and Ch'ng Yi was damn ecstatic whenever
Infinite songs came out. Hahas, although I'm not a k-pop fan but I can
still chat with them about the topic.
Mostly what I talked about is TVXQ hahas, I'm sure u can guess y...
Drum roll.....
Ah Ma Choo.
Yeap its cos of her alright!!!! XD
Influencing me with them.
One topic I can remember most clearly is that I said Changmin (I hope i got his name spelling correct.) sings high pitch parts.
Hahas thanks to ah ma I know about this stuffs.
DUH? OF COURSE. I am a Cassiopeian and I am determined to convert all of my friends into Cassies. Of course, if you are like Nelli and already have a band that you love like her One Direction, I won't bother you. However, if you don't have one, well, let's just say that you're free game. HAHA. Beware peeps. I'm gonna convert all of you!! :D :D
FUCK. Now my laptop's lagging and I can't even see what I'm typing and it's loading so slowly and once again I am irritated. Urgh. Stupid laptop. Stupid lagness. STUPID INTERNET. LOVELY DBSK. Okay. Nice ending to a totally ridiculous rant. HAHA. x)
TADAH~ CARITY IS DAMN SWEET TODAY~ :) She and Nelli are one of my only friends who will say I miss you straight in the face, wahahaha.
Carity: ppl wan u la
Me: Aiyo. :( so sweet ah? :)
Carity: I always sweet de wat!!
Me: Thats why I'm sour. Sweet and sour go together ma. XD
Carity: kns!! lyk tt oso can!!
Carity: i miss u idiot!!
Me: WHY CANNOT?! :(( :(( I sour cannot ah? :( this fri you free? I off lol. You want we go out la. AIYO. MISS ME BEING AN IDIOT IS IT? :))
Carity: FREE!!go whr??miss ur everything la
AWWW~~ So sweet of her. :) *touched*
Oh. The reason she said I was an idiot was because I made her miss me. AWWWWW. MY LOVELY CARITY. NOBODY CAN REPLACE YOU OKAY? I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH ALSO!! :( :(
Now that I think of it, I kinda miss Michelle, Tingwei, Shimin, Yilian too. I think I'm crazy. I just met with Tingwei not too long ago. O_O Okay. I really am crazy. :) More importantly, I really miss hanging around Nelli and Carity together. No Joel and no Leon. Just the three of us, like it always was in school. :) I miss that. :')
I'm not going for class outing cause Laine's off on that day and I've gotta work. Honestly, I really didn't wanna go for class outing but now that I think of Carity there all alone... :( :( :( I NEED THAT OFF DAY MAN LAINE. I NEED IT!! *sobs and cries and turns into a puddle of goo*
G.
O.
O.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
^^
Okay, I really am going crazy. :) Oh, by the way, did I profess my undying love for TVXQ's Catch Me yet? I SERIOUSLY LOVE THAT SONG! :) :) OH OH AND JUNSU'S LOVE IS A SNOW. OMG. HIS VOCALS.... *mesmerised*
I'm dying a happy girl now. I seriously don't mind dying now. Right now, my life is complete. I have a wonderful family, wonderful friends, (shit. I forgot to say that I miss ELSIE SO MUCH TOO! T-T) and I'm a wonderful fan to a wonderful band. Shit. I'm really blessed aren't I? :)
I'm so so thankful man. Thank you God. THANKS! :) I will try to go to church more often from now on, lol. :) Keyword: T.R.Y. ^^
Alright. Ending this entry with an excellent fancam to an excellent event that happened on 29/9/12.
XIAH FREAKING JUNSU SANG A DB5K SONG AT HIS FANMEET IN JEJU ISLAND! ^^ NO STRIKE THAT, HE SANG TWO SONGS: Forever Love and Asu wa Kuru Kara. This is Asu wa Kuru Kara. :) I was so happy that I really wanted to kiss him as thanks lol. This proves that we ot5 fans are not stupid. That what we are believing in will come true one day.
Xiah Junsu
Micky Yoochun
Jung Yunho
Kim Jaejoong
Shim Changmin
ALL OF YOU MAKE UP DBSK. That is what Cassiopeia stands for. :) YEAH BABE~ ^^ ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH.
"When the rain falls, I will become your umbrella. When the wind blows, I will become your wall. Even though the darkness overtakes the night, tomorrow will come no matter what."
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